I don’t know how I will make it. It seems the destination is so far away.
What do I want? To be able to live on my own terms, free from the pressures of giving up my own time for someone who does not really care about me. I desire to be in charge of myself. I don’t desire power or great wealth, but I do desire to matter. What do I mean by that? I want to live meaningfully, to be able to speak of philosophy, science, and the mind in a way that is innovative and helpful to others. If I am able to do that, I will live in line with my values and passions.
But the road is far, and scary. I don’t know if people will want to use my knowledge, or if my knowledge is enough. But I must try. Why? Because even if I fail, at least I stepped up to my own calling. Like the brave words of Helen Keller “Life is either a daring adventure or nothing”.
That’s why, for better or for worse, I have to continue forward. But I should keep in mind, that it’s not about the destination. It’s not about being a great mind, it’s about becoming one. Learn to enjoy your unique pursuit, even if life teaches you lessons about poverty or sorrow. Find enjoyment in your story. It’s so easy to get lost and confused because there are so many others trying to talk you into their illusion. Remember to walk to the beat of your own drum,
Enjoy it as if it were already a symphony, because it is.