This post is a long reply from @jasonleow ‘cause he asks me this on his great post on meditation.
The fact that you never really forgot about it even after years, sounds like it means something special to you. Why are you drawn to it?
I intentionally delaying reply since I realized it deserves a more lengthy explanation. I might add a little bit story on it. I’m glad you asked me about it. It really helps me to dig back again on my 6 years memories on why I really like it.
Looking back a little and asking my self on why I was really fascinated with Zen Buddhism and meditation.
Story on how I’ve got into it
It was 6 years ago when I was in 2nd year in college. If I remember correctly I was in the middle of reading a lot of books about self-help and self-improvement book. It seems I’ve undergone on a journey to improve myself since I don’t have confidence in me and I’ve got really attached to someone and it was freaking hard to leave without them.
It seems at the time I was seeking validations from someone just to be happy. It took me a really long time to realize it. While browsing a lot of books on self-improvement. I stumble upon the book Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind by Shunryu Suzuki. At that time, I don’t really have an idea about Zen and meditation stuff. While reading a few chapters of it in eBook. It seems I was hooked, I like it, this really something that I really need. I actually print the whole ebook so that I will have a hard copy ‘cause it was hard to find it in our bookstore. So I just decided to print it.
I start to dream on maybe I should go to a mountain and just become a monk.
What part I really like
"In the beginner's mind there are many possibilities, but in the expert's there are few."
When I’ve found that I really like coding and programming it was really exciting at the beginning but when I’ve gained some professional experience. I’ve already had a lot of assumptions and expectation on my head that prevents me from taking actions. Becoming a curious person slowly dies. So I like to keep the childlike in me even though I’ve already had some experience still curious to learn and improve my craft.
This is something that is easy to say but it was hard to practice.
Living in Moments—
This is really something that is close to my heart and I’ve actually become my tag line on my Tumblr blog. It goes something like this “It the world of fast face technology, don’t forget to live in the moments.” Before I always caught up on wishing about the futures and I tend to forget to live in the moments.
Before, I’m this person who multi-task, eating while watching TV, Reply to messages while coding and doing something important. I’ve learned to focus my attention on just one thing.
Lastly, that really hits me is about regret in the past. Wherein there is something that I didn’t do that I wish I did. Which basically, I’ve kept repeating the scenario in my head and thinking only if I do this and really pursue it. It was a really crazy loop and I always feel bad about it.
When I’ve read about it in Zen, I start to accept things in the past ‘cause it's already happening and we can no longer do anything about it. So I just focus on doing everything every moment so that I’ll make sure there would be no regret anymore in my life.
When Life Happens
After I graduate and enter into the workforce, I completely forgot about it and I've moved to other books. There is always this moment when you are really hooked at something for a short period of time and suddenly there is some crazy stuff that will drag your attention and you will put down whatever in your hands as of the moment.
Most of my knowledge came from reading and some practice. I really don't’ have experience yet when there are actual Monk and Zen teacher that guides me on Zen meditation, but hopefully, at some point in the future, I would like to immerse myself with real monks.
P.S. I'm actually born Roman Catholic but I'm more fascinated with Zen Buddhism.