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May 22, 2019 20:23:34

That's it, I quit

by @Arcticloon PATRON | 201 words | 336🔥 | 336💌

Janne Koponen

Current day streak: 336🔥
Total posts: 336💌
Total words: 73184 (292 pages 📄)

I have a confession to make. For the past few months I have been smoking more or less regularly. While it hasn't been on a daily basis I would say it has still been a regular bad habit.

I used to smoke regularly, some sixteen years ago, until, after numerous attempts to quit completely I decided to allow myself an occasional cigarette every now and then. I had a strict rules for special occasions when it was acceptable. And for all that time it worked well.

At some point I noticed I have allowed myself these special occasions more and more often. At first, I didn't buy my own cigarettes. There were plenty available whenever I needed one. But after it happened more often I felt guilty. Not for smoking, but smoking other people's cigarettes. So obviously, instead of stopping, I started buying my own.

Now, I don't promise to quit completely again. I promise to return back to my old occasional habit. But I also promise to keep it strict again. I need to stick to my rules. And I need to be careful not to stretch those rules.

After all, its just another streak for me to work on.

Originally published at arcticloon.fi

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    @Arcticloon I quit smoking in 1978 after my mother died of lung cancer from smoking. Quitting was one of the most difficult things I've ever accomplished and one of my accomplishments that I'm most proud of. I'm thinking of you.

    - Mike

    Mike Byrnes avatar Mike Byrnes | May 22, 2019 12:43:45
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    @Arcticloon - quitting anything enjoyable is hard. Thanks for being vulnerable here.

    Brian Ball avatar Brian Ball | May 22, 2019 10:42:33
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    @Arcticloon Two questions for you. 1. What is the payoff you get from smoking? 2. Why is that payoff greater than the payoff from not smoking?

    Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | May 22, 2019 10:30:30
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