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Oct 04, 2019 14:17:46

Talia's theory of pushy, horny boys

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While living in the dorms I worked out a lot. I also ate three meals a day, sometimes four if I were out with friends late at night. I would sometimes see the flab on my thighs and love handles grow if I let myself eat a little too much dessert, too little salad, or missed a couple workouts. But I never ballooned out of control to the point where my figure became unattractive to any boy.

If I were shorter, then I think I woudl've had phases where I was  a chubby girl. But my limbs are long and can hold more flab than on someone like Moriah. 

Three meals a day amounts to more or less 1100 meals in a year. Thinking of it in numbers reminds me of those arcade racing games, where you are constantly running out of time and must continue crossing checkpoints to gain more time. 1100 meals in a year... just under 20,000 meals before even arriving here to college... most of those 20,000 provided by my parents. So much of my existence owed to my parents... not just my conception, but the checkpoints. 

So that's another reason why I was never scared of any of these guys who bought me two meals. Two meals in the context of 1,100 in a year? That was nothing. I didn't owe anything to them and they knew it as well. This brings me back to the earlier point of trading beauty for meals. If a girl is not so beautiful... maybe they are just average, which is totally fine... these standards are just subjective constructions by the western media right?... but if a girl is a normal girl and a guy takes her out to dinner as a 'date', pays for everything... that guy is often pushy. That's how all animals become when they sense that something is within their grasps. All patience begins slipping away. 

In the social context of dating, a loss of patience leads to pushyness. He has already had his condoms ready to go... packed in a pocket separate his phone and wallet so that he doesn't accidentally take them out before the time has arrived and his balls feel heavy. He will do everything... or I should say he will only see and do anything that leads to a course-correction to a place where he might get the one thing he's desiring at that time. 

With a normal girl that a guy feels he can obtain, he gets pushy. The more leverage he has, the pushier he gets. Girls hate pushy guys. It's a turnoff. And so I understand why a normal girl might not like getting free meals... because it transforms the guy across the table into a black balled beast. 

Now I never had that problem. Because the boys across the table never got pushy with me? 

Why? I never knew until around the twentieth free meal when something clicked in my head. This guy knows he can't have me. So he's not becoming pushy. But then why buy me a free meal at all?

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