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May 16, 2019 11:00:22

Sometimes, getting up is the hardest thing

by @rosieodsey PATRON | 260 words | 22🔥 | 106💌

Rosie Odsey

Current day streak: 22🔥
Total posts: 106💌
Total words: 31154 (124 pages 📄)

"It never feels as bad when you're doing it. It just feels bad thinking about doing it."

That's what he said to me as I wept into his chest.

There's nothing wrong. Not really.

Well, hormones and carbs and sleepiness. A pending proposal and a pile of work. Looming deadlines. A letter unsent.

But on the other side of it, the laundry is up to date, there is money coming in, I'm exercising regularly and I eat good food most meals.

Some things just need to be felt.

And I'm feeling it.

Here's what I'm grateful for: I know it's a feeling.

I can't be mad if my oil needs changing or my tank is out of gas. It doesn't mean that the car is a lemon or that the destination isn't worth the journey.

It just means that the oil needs changing or the tank is out of gas.

All I can do is change the oil and refuel. And do my best to keep an eye on those levels next time.

Imagine if I thought it was someone's fault. Or if I tried to fix the situation. Or if I tried to write off the whole day.

Instead, I got up. I showered. I ran out of bacon. I went and bought some. I made breakfast. I ate breakfast. I washed up. I made coffee.

I'm here. Keeping my writing streak going. And then I'll go on to prep the slides for this afternoon's workshop. And I will probably feel low energy the whole time. And that's ok.

  • 1

    @rosieodsey - did they "feeling" happen before or after bacon? Great share.

    Ghi Arguello avatar Ghi Arguello | May 15, 2019 21:01:47
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      @ghiarguello Before and after and during. The day has improved and I'm still feeling.

      Rosie Odsey avatar Rosie Odsey | May 16, 2019 18:51:20
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