Start recognizing your patterns. I get a couple of good days, followed by a few bad. It’s in my nature. I jump between days filled with of nihilism and others full of meaning and conscientiousness. The nihilistic days used to be so hurtful, it felt like things would be this way forever. But ones I started recognizing it as a pattern, I suddenly understood that it’s only temporary, the good days are just around the corner. Sure it still sucks, but it’s not as bad as it used to be, and that is progress!
Having bad days is just as important to you as having good ones. In fact, they are the reason you recognize some days as good, to begin with. So don’t try to wish them away, just accept them as a huge and necessary part of who you are, and who you will become. Find your own way of accepting them. For me, a huge part of that was understanding them as part of the pattern that is me. For you, it might be something else, but don’t wish them away. Rejoice, you are alive and having bad days is an important part of living.
I will continue to write about topics like this. I am glad you took the time to read it all. If you did, I'm sure we have a lot in common. Good night, whoever you are.