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May 23, 2019 23:45:08

Re: Giving it another go

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Jason Leow

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@svenka said about his aspirations writing here on 200wad: "one thing I would really like to be able to improve on, is my ability to not care about what people might think of what I produce."


Love this line. Resonated much. This was a slow lesson I learned and am still learning, from writing here everyday. The act of posting it publicly everyday was like one small chipping away at the massive block of anxiety. Everyday you put yourself out there, just you with your own voice, in this loud and unforgiving world. At some point, it'll give. You cease to care enough. I hope. After around 6 months, it's showing tiny signs of that elusive not-caring. I can only hope it stays around, and grows.


I'm not sure if it's even possible that this fear of public writing (FOPW) will ever completely disappear. Perhaps it'll never, and all we can hope to do is to sit well with it, and respond well.


Maybe that's all I should aim for. And when I can finally do that well, I can't wait to see what I'll produce! Imagine that self confidence. That audacity, to actually not give a f**k about what anyone has to say or not say about it. 


Imagine.

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    @jasonleow The trick is to balance callousness with caring and conviction. Criticism is necessary for artistic growth. The audience is your net and your teacher. We have to keep climbing to the tent top if we want to fly.
    Thanks for sharing.
    - Mike

    Mike Byrnes avatar Mike Byrnes | May 23, 2019 12:47:23
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      @mikebyrnes thanks for the advice. I'm a big fan of criticism and feedback. It helps me grow and I love personal growth. What's interesting recently is that, through my daily writings here, I'm learning about a different way of creative output that doesn't need external criticism, an audience or teacher, nor should it care. It's not all that clear to me now what exactly it aims to do, but it's something along the lines of writing out to think, to grow, in a cathartic and clarifying. Maybe just for the inner critic...? I don't know for sure, but it's definitely an inward journey for the self alone. Not sure if I'm making sense...maybe this needs a post to explore further! ;)

      Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | May 24, 2019 12:37:53
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    @jasonleow @brandonwilson Solve FOPW with a solid DGAF attitude. #ImIn #WEARETEAMSTREAK

    Jeff Riddall avatar Jeff Riddall | May 23, 2019 11:52:48
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      @Rawhead #ImIn too

      Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | May 23, 2019 23:58:31
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