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Mar 05, 2019 22:18:01

Paradise outside - desert inside (100)

by @foxtrott | 202 words | ๐Ÿฃ | 5๐Ÿ’Œ

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How are you? A simple question. Great. Awesome. In paradise. Surfing. Beach. Waterfalls. Beautiful sunrises. Hiking in the jungle. Villa with pool. Hammock at the rice fields. Tasty fruits. Deep rooted culture. Scooter along the winding roads. Freedom. New friendships. Reunions. Laughter. Sport. Action. Relaxing. Nasi Campur. Friendly locals. Cultural exchange. Had it already all here in Bali.

How are you? A simple question. Tears in my eyes. Hard to breath. Wanna hide. Run away. Lonely. No home. Left behind again. Hamster wheel. Stuck. No progress. Regrets. Meaningless. Worthless. Unproductive. No end in sight. Burden. Giving in. Giving up. White flag. Just want to stop this endless right. 

How are you? What a complex question. What is the scale to measure against. Is barely getting out of bed already good enough. Who do I want to let into this dark mess. What depth do I want to uncover. Might a simple fine thanks be the best answer? Who is that You. This never ending stream of crazy thoughts jumping around like crazy, having no master, getting not tired and being unpredictable at every time? This underweight five feet walking something? Or non of both of them?

How are you? I don't know. 

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    @foxtrott Amazing!!! Thank you
    "How are you?" - one of the questions most difficult to reply to!
    And yet, there you grasp the "positive/easy/joyful" and "negative/difficult/sad" and put them together, self-awareness of the highest realm. Most genuine true of being, ain't...

    Will look forward to your posts
    (if you feel like looking around, there is a lot of "us" here, you are not alone, at least your Words are not)

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Mar 09, 2019 13:09:02
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    @foxtrott I like what you write and I guess you have set up the goal of 100 days' streaks,since you have countdown in title. It's an inspiring way to keep motivated๏ผ

    5plus6 avatar 5plus6 | Mar 09, 2019 12:05:22
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      @5plus6 thanks

      foxtrott avatar foxtrott | Mar 09, 2019 16:00:26
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    @foxtrott I'm complex. Thanks for asking =)

    Lex Tan avatar Lex Tan | Mar 06, 2019 12:35:38
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      @lexc you're welcome

      foxtrott avatar foxtrott | Mar 09, 2019 15:58:54
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