Agh. I knew the weekends were going to be hard to keep my writing streak up.
I did have time to do it, it just kept on slipping my mind.
I will put it down to the fact that I was too tired to do it. I ran 15k in the morning and then another 5k in the afternoon, along with the usual household chores.
The fact I had to write 200 words was niggling in my brain as I slumped up to bed after dozing on the sofa. I knew I needed to do it, but the "space" and "permission" I needed was not there.
I guess it is best not to see writing here as a chore that has to be completed. Sure, keeping that writing streak would be nice, but just having somewhere to dump my brain will be useful and will hopefully get me in a habit of taking some sort of action.
On another note, this process is already causing me angst and stress. I might change my username, or if that is not possible, will delete this and create a new account. I want this to be as anonymous as possible and people might be able to tie 2-and-2 together with my current username.
I guess I am ashamed of some of the things I have already written as they are not feelings or thoughts I would share with anyone else, apart from my closest friend. We are quite alike in our likes, loves and mental issues. He might be 200 miles away at the moment, but I know he will have me in the back of his mind most days.