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May 29, 2019 22:51:45

One day when I lose my streak

by @jasonleow | 269 words | 347🔥 | 385💌

Jason Leow

Current day streak: 347🔥
Total posts: 385💌
Total words: 186958 (747 pages 📄)

One day, it will happen. Not today. Likely not tomorrow. But one day in the future, for sure. An over-nighter on a plane. An epic day where you just collapsed into bed out of exhaustion. Or just watching too much TV and plain forgetting. One day, I will lose my streak.

I just read @brianball 's post about losing his streak, and this line made me sit up:

In fact, I've argued that the whole streak think is a dubious incentive at best and possibly carries to much negative weight for the inevitable day you've simply got too much life to life.

It's so true... yet how do we continue to partake in the streak mechanism unaffected? I love the streak mechanism for nudging me to keep certain habits. Though I'm naturally an upholder and usually have no problems keeping a plan or routine, I do enjoy the extra slight push that the streak gives, because writing everyday is hard and that push does make a difference.

But you know, to be completely, bystander-neutral kind of objective, the streak is a game we invented ourselves, to play with ourselves. It's a game where we are the banker, player and opponent rolled into one. We are the banker, creating the streak game and the rules and incentives of it. We are the player, playing it everyday, keeping to the rules, and enjoying the winnings (or losses!) based on our play performance. We are also the opponent, because forgetfulness, laziness, lack of discipline, ideas, time all compete with the player in us. 

Strange overlaps of interests and conflicts for sure! :D



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    @jasonleow Here are the words/phrases that jump out at me from your post: "it will happen" and "inevitable." I challenge these assumptions. Here is my attitude--my streak on 200WAD will end when 200WAD ends, if ever. Period. Unless I am stricken with the inability to create thoughts or write, then I have no excuse. I have decided that writing is a core competency for me. If you are with me, it's time to burn your boats. No turning back. But I completely understand if that's not what you are willing to do based on your goals and circumstances. :)

    Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | May 29, 2019 08:23:49
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      @brandonwilson nice. I love your clarity and assuredness. That's why you're the captain of #teamstreak! ;)

      For me, it's a little more flexible, depending on how things unfold, how it serves me, how my goals evolve etc. I doubt I'll ever stop writing even if I'm not on 200wad, because it's something I had always enjoyed and will continue to do so. As a student of impermanence, and knowing with certainty that nothing is ever certain in life, I doubt I can say to myself that I will never lose my streak. But for now, the streak is still helpful for me and my journey, and so the game continues. At least till 200 when I'm doing a stock-take of the journey.

      Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | May 29, 2019 23:37:10
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      @jasonleow I look forward to your assessment at 200. I have my own special offering planned for that milestone.

      Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | May 29, 2019 08:54:55
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      @brandonwilson oooh wow special offering. I'm looking forward to yours now more than mine. :D

      Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | May 30, 2019 19:27:04
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