What will happen to us today is completely unknown, as unknown as what will happen at death. Whatever happens, our commitment is to use it to awaken our heart. As one of the slogans says, 'All activities should be done with one intention.' That intention is to realize our connection with all beings.
--Pema Chödrön, The Places that Scare You
What will happen to us today is completely unknown.
Even the most carefully laid plans can be waylaid.
Planning is more important than the plans, after all.
We do everything we can to prepare ourselves.
And we take on the day.
I have a schedule. It is handwritten in black ink. I have 5 tasks, also handwritten in black ink.
But these aren't an agreement with myself. These are merely a default position - the plotting of a course.
I will not argue with the wind and weather on the voyage.
[Today is] as unknown as what will happen at death.
Death is pretty unknown.
But I get the point.
In as much as I give myself leave to let death come as it will--a mystery to leave as mystery until its time, an unknown to make comfort in--I give myself leave to let today come as it will.
Today is also a mystery to leave as mystery until its time.
Today is also unknown to make comfort in.
Whatever happens, our commitment is to use [today] to awaken our heart. All activities should be done to realize our connection with all beings.
When the dust settles on me, all that will exist is how I connected with other beings.
In the minutiae, it is hard to connect with all beings, but even there I feel like I can. A thoughtful reply to that email. A careful exclusion of the non-essential. A mindful attention to self care so that I can connect all the more.
In the overwhelm, it is hard to connect with all beings, but even there I feel like I can.
A choice to find space. A bias towards being fully present. A moment of pause.
These things take courage.