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Mar 15, 2019 08:09:47

On the stuff of nightmares

by @rosieodsey PATRON | 244 words | 110🔥 | 194💌

Rosie Odsey

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When I was a kid, I would have told you that the most terrifying thing in the world was the poison arrow tree frog. I'm pretty sure I came across it in a nature documentary. Not even David Attenborough's soothing tones could downplay the terror that arose when I learned that if this frog just touched you, you would die.

This frog became the source of nightmares. It was also what I was afraid of when I woke up from a dream.

I now realise that I was just afraid. And my brain, being the clever thing that it is, pinpointed something to be afraid of.

As I got older the nightmares changed. It was loud arguments, people leaving, or the seam of my pants splitting.

Here's the tragedy: the thing I was afraid of had already happened.

I was merely afraid of being hurt by something outside of my control. So any signal that could hurt me became something to control (if I could) or something to be afraid of.

Most irrational fears or reactions I have now are something to be curious about. What is the stimuli? What is the feeling it's driving? Has this already happened somehow?

It's not often that I'm actually terrified of someone dying (last night). It's probably that I had a nightmare (stimuli) that drove a feeling (fear) that I attached some old memory of being abandoned (already happened).

Or maybe I just ate some bad chicken.

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    @rosieodsey Wow.... Good stuff here... Amazing imagery here.... and it's true, whenever we track the source of fear, it often loses it's powers. Thanks for this awesome piece.

    Seun Oyebode avatar Seun Oyebode | Mar 15, 2019 18:05:58
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      @seunoyebode Thanks for reading. You're welcome.
      I will play with you though, it doesn't often lose its powers entirely.
      It just evens the playing field a little.
      I cower before the wizard of Oz but I can talk to the man behind the curtain.
      Elizabeth Gilbert has a lovely way of putting it. It was something close to this; fear has to come for the ride but it doesn't belong in the driver's seat.

      Rosie Odsey avatar Rosie Odsey | Mar 16, 2019 06:49:37
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    @rosieodsey - Wow. This is beautiful. The topic and the reflection and the style.
    @seunoyebode , @brandonwilson , @abrahamKim
    Please read this... I have been following her and every single post is beautiful.

    Keni avatar Keni | Mar 14, 2019 22:34:30
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      @rosieodsey @keni Thanks Keni, for the call....

      Seun Oyebode avatar Seun Oyebode | Mar 15, 2019 18:04:23
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      @keni Thank you so much ❤️

      Rosie Odsey avatar Rosie Odsey | Mar 16, 2019 06:46:20
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