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Mar 09, 2019 09:56:23

On comfort work

by @rosieodsey PATRON | 310 words | 🐣 | 222💌

Rosie Odsey

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Some days I can't bring myself to do the real work.

Yesterday morning, I sat at my desk and spent 5 hours and 40 minutes doing not real work.

There is a key difference between the version of me that did yesterday morning and the me of five years ago.

I know what it is I need now. I know that I'm avoiding because I feel uncertain. Now I know that some days it's worth pushing through the uncertainty and other days it's not.

Five years ago, I wouldn't have known that.

Five years ago, I would have stayed in bed or binged a TV show or used many other things to avoid.

Yesterday, instead, I gave myself the gift of comfort work. When I feel uncertainty, there are other parts of my life that I can clean up. I updated my finances and finance goals. I emptied my in tray. I processed the brain dump notes I created over the past week. I zeroed my inbox. I let myself clear the decks.

After lunch, there was nothing left to do but the real work. And because every notification had been checked and every email was processed, I had nothing to hide behind.

And so I did it. 5 hours of deep no-distraction work.

Yesterday, I didn't follow my plans. Instead, I acknowledged where I was at, gave myself some comfort (the kind that happened to be productive), and salvaged the rest of it.

I couldn't have given myself that five years ago.

I didn't have the awareness, the mental tools, or the structure in place to know how to navigate that situation.

These things don't come naturally, I don't think. Maybe some get it through the culture they're in.

I had to learn from scratch and train in it, practise with it, stumble through it.

And I'm so glad that I did.

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    @rosieodsey I don't actually know what to comment, but I really want to comment, "I really "liked your posts" doesn't say much (THAT is why we do not have a "like feature", thanks god, so we have to dig just a tiny little bit deeper into what the resonance to a post is about

    so ... i admire the way you handled that day, and that you know how you did it! Well... I envy you

    It is so great i can read here what you write somewhere.. there (omg, you are "on the other side" wooow!), isn't it :-)

    Lucjah avatar Lucjah | Mar 09, 2019 16:00:55
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      @lucjah ❤️ Thank you. It was quite the journey but I got here!

      Rosie Odsey avatar Rosie Odsey | Mar 10, 2019 06:10:01
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