I have loved coffee. I enjoyed the pursuit of a hot cup of coffee in a well designed space that attracts interesting people. I have enjoyed it. I may have over-enjoyed it. In fact, I may have enjoyed it at my own expense.
Now, I'm confident this love affair has run its course. I'm going to explore what were previously only the opportunity costs. States of mind like patience and pause accompanied by an internal calm. The rhythm of the metronome will slow and what might have taken 15 minutes in the past may take longer. It may take much longer. The days ahead will reveal how much longer.
I'm turning off the loud music and stepping off the dance floor as I transition into a more thoughtful state of mind. It was enjoyable. It was the basis of many a conversation. It just didn't quite get me where I thought it might.
Coffee alone was not simply a stimulant but possibly a distraction. The kind of distraction that enables me to blast through a day with nothing much to show for my efforts. I've handled the puzzle pieces and flipped them over and re-organized them. I am familiar with the shapes and the subtlety of the colors and transitions. I simply have yet to piece them together. Starting now, I'll begin the piecing.