Today has been a good day. First and last day off work this week, so I hope I used it wisely. Climbing with an old friend, and trying out meditation at a local “Buddhist place”. I have really gotten the ability to relax a lot more in social settings, it’s quite a drastic difference from this time last year. It feels so good to have some progress in that endeavor, it was so exhausting to constantly be on my toes socially. Now I felt a lot calmer and safe both speaking to my old friend and speaking to the strangers at the “Buddhist place”. I was not convinced with the Buddhists though, so I’m still looking for that one branch of Buddhism that isn't too rooted in the spiritual/cultural aspects. I’m trying to understand Buddhism like I would tackle philosophy, so the religious part isn’t really doing it for me. Although I would like a practicing community, hope I will find that without the extra “mumbo-jumbo”
Other than that, I still feel the benefits of letting my expectations of the future go. It’s like I’m actually more open to life, which makes it seem a lot richer to me. And I can’t wait for my first Judo session on Tuesday, I have a feeling that will be very interesting.
Oh, and by the way;
Whenever you witness a feeling of anxiety, fear or any other feeling of insecurity. Don’t wish it away, overlook it or force it in any way. Just look at it, feel it, and give it love and compassion. Truly accept it and understand where it’s coming from. You cannot force anyone out of their anxiety, so the same is true for ourselves. We can only love and accept them, and show them that their anxiety is welcome too.
Well, if you read all the way to the bottom, you and I probably have a lot in common. I'm so grateful that people like you exist. Good night.