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Dec 24, 2018 20:57:37

I miss you dad

by @wernminlim | 232 words | 🐣 | 85💌

Gene Lim

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Today I received a text message from my aunt regarding my late father who had passed away when I was around 3 years old. She received a cheque from an insurance company regarding my father's life and education policy for me. Suddenly a huge amount of money was delivered to me unexpectedly. It all came as a surprised and we never expected something like this to happen.

It has been 23 years since my father passed away and getting news like this only brings me back sadness. Emotionally writing this post, I was only 3 years old at that time and as a baby, I couldn't remember any memories of him. I do not know what he looks like, I do not know what is my first word to him. Was it dad, was it daddy, was it dada?

I could only imagine what he is like through what people talk about him and through pictures of him. I am thankful what he cares for me when he was still alive. That he thought about my education and life. But right now all I could think of is all the IFs questions. If only he is still alive. If only had raised me up. If only he had thought me on how to read, how to write, how to swim, how to drive a car. So many questions to ask him.

I miss you dad.

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    @wernminlim ❤️❤️❤️ Merry Christmas Gene! All the best for you and your family

    Basile Samel avatar Basile Samel | Dec 25, 2018 07:22:02
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      @basilesamel Basile! Merry Christmas to you too! ???

      Gene Lim avatar Gene Lim | Dec 25, 2018 07:35:37
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    @wernminlim My friend. I should be the happiest person on Earth because both of my parents are still alive, they spend some money on my education, on my well-being when i was hit the hardest (i suffered from Schizophrenia) and they were always here for me.
    But something in me is telling me (sometimes) that i would be better of without them. I don't know it's maybe because my father likes to drink alcohol and he sometimes is grumpy. But there is one part in me, deep inside of me telling me that if i loose any of those two people (and i forgot to mention my brother) i would be the saddest person on Earth. I just wish that when your time comes at the age where you have achieved everything in your life, with your grandkids all grown up and your family all well suited, only then you can close your eyes and meet your father in heaven.
    May his soul rest in peace, and i know that he is in Heaven and looking up on you.
    Peace bro.

    Berkan avatar Berkan | Dec 24, 2018 23:27:30
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      @berkan Berkan, thank you so much for this kind words!

      Gene Lim avatar Gene Lim | Dec 25, 2018 07:34:03
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