Today has been a strange day. It’s no point in writing how awful it’s felt. Let’s just start over. Let’s chart a short term purpose going forward:
Find more joy, play more, live as if you saw the world through the eyes of a child.
Don’t push yourself too much, write because you like it, not because you plan on becoming a great thinker one day. That’s a good start, right?
Most of the activities I have planned ahead are things I feel really passionate about, but they are also good for me in the future, so I have viewed them more like chores. Maybe it would be a good idea to change this view. Don’t do it because it will feel good at a later time, do it because it feels good now. That’s what playing is.
This view doesn't come naturally to me. I have always been a “two marshmallow” kind of guy. If you are into the science of success, I am sure you know what I am referring to. But having that mindset, well, it doesn't make life that playfull now does it? If I do the same activities, but for different reasons, it will still lead to the same results right. So why not do it simply because I enjoy it.