Reacting to I choose to live, to die Keni posted the following (including the emoji) "Interesting thought experiment. I have heard it often said, after many iteration, the love we feel later in life feels manufactured cost benefit analysis - while the one in the pre-teen feels raw and real. I would cherish the pre-teen assessment as uncomplicated and closer to heart. :) ".
As our thoughts and emotions get refined by experience, knowledge and discipline they progressively become less raw. It is like most things in life both a good and bad thing. Its good for the reason refining is - rounder, more polished, better 'product'. Its bad because we want to feel as animal as possible. We want to strip ourselves of all conditioning and learned, expected behaviour tainted by practicality and social expectations. We want to find out what's left of us when all we have learned is peeled away. Few things feel better the second time. The magic is in the debut, the premiere, the first.
Raw feels like that. The rush of new, uninfluenced, unfiltered, leels truer for that reason. Is it though? Are we really less of us when we were the cloth of civilized behaviour or the battle worn armour of experience? Aren't we closer to the heart when we know all we can about us? Whatever the answer is, we are without doubt more likely to be more 'businesslike' with love the older we get.