I tend to be efficient when I am angry.
My place is spotless right after an argument.
My energy to get things to be super organized is the highest if the argument was intense.
Things that I need to do becomes clear and I don't go back and forth thinking about what would be nice to do. I just do.
I feel less burdened and clarity engulfs my thoughts.
I have the tendency to waste time obsessing about nonsense under normal circumstances.
This observation came about after I decided to consciously track my energy levels. Part of an experiment I am doing.
My first aha moment happened in the company of people I didn't think would affect my energy in a negative way. That confirmed to me that this is something I need to give more time and attention.
Maybe there were issues that were pent up inside - bringing me down?
Maybe now they are all out in the open?
Maybe it's my constant worrying about things I can't control affects my energy.
Maybe I can say NO more easily when I am angry.
I do not know yet ...
But there is something there for me to dig deeper into.