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Apr 24, 2019 16:21:43

111. days of (dragging) the streak (I lost my draft again)

by @lucjah PATRON | 270 words | 51🔥 | 328💌

Lucjah

Current day streak: 51🔥
Total posts: 328💌
Total words: 91440 (365 pages 📄)

Today I lost my draft again...                                                

Recently there are not many moments I get excited about writing my 200 words. I keep writing these heavy, uninspired, unwitty, unfunny posts and I feel completely stuck.

This is my 111th post and I feel as if I was dragging my streak for at least last 40 posts...

Well, actually I AM DRAGGING MYSELF!

Dragging through this experience of "doing it for doing it". And, I must confess, I am proud that I made this decision and stick to it!

But that's all I am doing recently, proudly dragging.

The side effects are serious. I don't engage. I don't read as much as I used to. I envy all of you who seem to have fun, are genuinely engaged in their posts. 

I am just looking for easy ways out. Replies (shallow), informative posts (detached), playing with cool work of others' (cheap). And every time I finish, sometimes after substantial effort, it is only to realise that whatever I write is a wasted effort, uninspired and plain boring...

Today, as comments to a great post Participation by @craigpetterson, I received beautiful feedback from @brianball and @jasonleow . THANK YOU! I felt really moved. They were referring to good old days and I felt a gentle caress of "writing passion". I dived back into my patchworking mood. I open a Reply. Started jumping back and forth between posts, comments, drafts... NOT thinking that I should stop and save my draft elsewhere every jump. And... one time when I wanted to "come back" to THE DRAFT... it was not there.... 

I must say I feel kind of crushed...

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    @lucjah I'm proud of you and happy that you rebuilt the post from the ground up, and it's NOT dull AT ALL!!! <3

    PhilH avatar PhilH | Apr 24, 2019 18:57:44
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    @lucjah I lost a draft (again) a couple of days ago and it was a little gut wrenching at the time. Luckily it was on the weekend and I had time to re-create it from what little short term memory I have. As others have said, keep dragging along, cuz some of us are certainly still entertained. Inspiration will no doubt spring up again.

    Jeff Riddall avatar Jeff Riddall | Apr 24, 2019 12:00:28
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    @lucjah Lost draft but no lost streak. Losing a draft is a bummer, but it appears the current version of 200WAD is not conducive to your back-and-forth style of creation with regards to the dreaded auto-save. What can you do to overcome this obstacle and continue sharing your random brilliance with us?

    Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | Apr 24, 2019 07:38:03
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    @lucjah ouch...so painful to hear. So sorry for you to have to go through it AGAIN.

    Talking about "dragging", I'm sure you can make it through! You had been showing up in spite of it, and that is already winning in my book. Never mind the writing quality. It will pass. "This too, shall pass." - I'm sure you're familiar with this Zen saying! And I'm proud of "proudly dragging" - it's the way to go! I stand with you haha. This resonates because remember I went through the slump thing many weeks ago? There are many good things awaiting for you at the end of this slump. You can do it. 😊👍

    Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | Apr 24, 2019 22:36:29
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