Stupid Streak Is Lost

Published on Aug 15, 2019

I'm really pissed that I missed my streak by half an hour. I've been  out adventuring all day, having a blast. Now that I've missed the streak I feel like the day has been tarnished - I've been struggling with this streak business for so damn long and never got a good handle on it. I think now that it's gone, I'm going to just take a break.

I just don't have it figured out. I don't know why I keep showing up. I do it for this stupid streak.  And now, I genuinely wanted to log on and keep it, but I was too late. Feels stupid to get annoyed by such a small thing, but 200 wad has become such a great part of my life lately. 

However, maybe I'm doing it for the wrong reasons. Perhaps for me, it's best if I just come and go as I please. I mean, what am I trying to prove by being here everyday?  Is this a habit I actually want? I don't know. But I sure as hell  know that this streak has been the death of me.

I tried today, and I desperately wanted to just not write today, but  it was  eating away at me. Then I log on and am too late. Well, enough is enough for now. So I'm going to log out for a bit and rethink this stuff.

Thanks for all  the fun times everyone :)