This is the best description of my current situation.
Am I happy? Sometimes I am but more times I am not. There are some reasons why.
My boss is pretty nice and he is a really good friend of mine. I have never seen such a hard working person before. He just lives with his company and tries to keep the company alive.
Of course, I am trying to help him, but it's still his company and not mine. We are doing everything in kinda freestyle mode. The processes aren't set well. I could improve it by myself but back in my mind are still questions like "Why I am not working on my own, why I am not trying to make my own company?". So far I just cannot really identify with my friend's company direction but will see.
Also, I don't have much interest in our products and as I said in the previous post I am doing literally everything there even the sales and I am definitely not a sale person.
So with a lack of interest, there is no motivation to improve my skills and sometimes it is kinda bothering me.
Yeah, this circling in my head, but I guess it is just a normal life:).
Stay tuned. Efran.