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May 09, 2019 10:32:09

Re: I had a backache

by @brianball PATRON | 208 words | 389💌

Brian Ball

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Parent post: I had a backache

71 hours ago, we landed. The helo engine's 'thwap' of the rotor had synced my pulse. Thwap, thwap thwap.

As I jumped to the deck, I felt a sudden jolt. The sky was clear - no thunder clouds in sight. Yet lightning!

What was this sensation? Why was there a rock-festival happening in my lower lumbar -- and yet I didn't get the memo.

Fuuuuuuuuu.. I got work to do.

Eyes closed. Breathe deep.

Thank you!

Thanks for bringing me back to the present moment as the thwap had me imagining life-threatening scenarios.

Now, I'm back. I'm here with you.

I feel so connected to this present moment - and that feels infinite.

I'll stand up straight and respect gravity. I'll walk correctly and imbibe the universe.

Pain wasn't something we learned about in school. Whole worlds collide when pain is present. And it's always present. And it's always just passing by.

When God is with us, she shows up as pain - reminding us that infinite exists in this moment and every moment is forever. Only now and forever.

I hope to experience more pain - whether minor or massive. It's so delicious and mind-pleasing and humbling.

Who doesn't want to stand at the edge of the volcano and want to jump in?

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    @brianball "I hope to experience more pain - whether minor or massive. It's so delicious and mind-pleasing and humbling." - strange to read this if without context, but I get you! In the realm of personal growth, there's no pain/pleasure, only blessings.

    Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | May 10, 2019 13:00:46
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      @jasonleow it's fun to stretch our imaginations so far we don't recognized them anymore.

      Brian Ball avatar Brian Ball | May 09, 2019 22:14:23
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      @brianball word.

      Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | May 10, 2019 13:30:13
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      @brianball @jasonleow I don't know... It sounds cool and... deep and... true... to some extent , but I doubt that we would welcome all the pain, i mean the massive one...
      I am sorry to be gender biased but I always imagine that men do not know much about pain, and often, when they find out, it's a heart attack and pufff.... these ones will not tell us much...

      Lucjah avatar Lucjah | May 11, 2019 16:11:29
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      @lucjah no not gender biased at all. I do feel you are right, in the general sense. Women do tend to encounter pain on a more regular basis than men, generally speaking. And the welcoming of pain always feels more like on hindsight, when we look back. When in the moment of pain, I doubt I can welcome it at all! Now I'm curious to hear more about your perspective. Share more in a post? ;)

      Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | May 11, 2019 22:34:00
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      @brianball @jasonleow hihi... that's a smart encouragement! I might...
      I remember once here there was some kind of pain related discussion and i had some arguments of that sort, yet I got over agitated and finally I did not published that comment.
      With literal pain there are pains and pains, there are the ones you can do smt about (i dont mean medication, more like changing position, breathing...) and the ones you cannot (toothache for eg). Somehow for me it make a big difference. The pain PLUS the feeling of total helplessness... that's hard

      Lucjah avatar Lucjah | May 11, 2019 17:44:28
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      @brianball @lucjah ah ok no worries. Share only if it feels right for you.

      Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | May 11, 2019 23:48:35
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