I was having lunch with my dad. And I finally told him that the reason why I hadn't taken on an actual job yet was because I had too enormous an ego to be an employee. I then caveated that with saying... but there's something off. At first I thought that meant I should be an entrepreneur. But the only thing was... I'm not an entrepreneur.
I think a great artist can really singularly create an artifact that allows other people to feel what it's like to hold another person's perspective. And in that I find Gary Vee to be such a great artist. The only thing is, the perspective he so artistically transposes is one of an entrepreneur. He does it so well that I can almost fully feel what it feels like to be a real entrepreneur. And the reality is, that's not who I am.
At first, I would beat myself up over this. If only I could just be less lazy, more productive. Then I could be that. I was wishing I was someone else. My recent developments have been a more pondering of who I am. While feeling the reality of what an entrepreneur is... thanks in fact to Gary and his team's artistry.. I really was able to look into the existential mirror... and compare it to GaryVee's perspective and ask... is that me? And the answer was no.
So who am I?
I'll write that in another post because this was actually a response to Keni's post about how she hates people with egos. And I have to admit, mine is enormous like Kanye. I don't know if I can help it... but I try to. Just like a person has to eat everyday--or close to it-- I need to chip away at my Ego everyday.
That's why my last Audible selection -- if you have a subscription you get one audiobook a month -- I was pondering which Ryan Holiday book to get next. It was either The obstacle is the way or Ego is the enemy. I really wanted the former... but that was because I didn't want to confront what my bigger issue was. So I went with the latter.