@brianball @brandonwilson @jasonleow @seunoyebode @basilesamel @knight @efran
Thank you for your congratulations for my 100th streak a week ago.
Now, please congrats me again: I start over from 1.
At first, it's an accident caused by my phone. I explained the reason to @basilesamel and he agreed to save it back.
But I give up. I have to start over.
My feeling is quite complex after achieving 100.
A long post was planned to publish, but I broke it into pieces of replies. If you connect them into one (like a puzzle), my suffering is clear:
Look, my profile is I'm "stuck to make hard choices", so I have to write down the things happening on me. (@efran)
I force myself to slow down, otherwise, I would reply too many "easy thanks". Thanks for reading one piece of my life, and encouraging me to improve the whole. (@brianball)
Besides achieving 100 streaks in discipline, I have unlocked so many motivations to be a better human. (@basilesamel)
There are growing in writing, creating more memories, exploring more possibilities. I'm not finding myself here, instead, I create my ideal one here. (@brandonwilson)
I'm in a stage recovering from depression and creating an ideal self. But, I have to remind me every day: 'record' in 100% honesty of my current self version, other than playing with the words to 'create' a perfect one. (@knight)
May I ask how did you feel when you get your first 100? The night after checking so many notifications from others (since there are links in the post), I slept in happy but woke up by a nightmare of anxiety: what to write tomorrow? (@jasonleow)
So do you see the problem? It's "falling too far in love with my wins".
Actually, I don't lack inspirations to write every day, what I do is to pick one.
My choices always end in the most "pleasant" one, which could enhance the impression that "I'm good at ..." for readers.
I am in the danger to cross the line: playing with the words to 'create' a perfect self.