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Jun 19, 2019 18:15:39

Impostor or not?

by @zyumbik | 240 words | 🐣 | 209💌

G̷͕̳͝l̴̨̟̏̃̆̚e̷̳͇͖͑̔b̴̞̱̦͕̼͇̔̽̀̽͒ ̸̈́̆͒̀̉ ̵̨̪̈́̒Sa̴͇͊b̵̨̅͆i̶̖͑̄r̶̩̘̊̒̕z̷̟̀͑y̴͚͉̎͘à̸̃͜ͅn̶̤̲̜͊͐ỏ̵͈͔̑v̴

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I'm a huge adept of the Do-It-Yourself mentality. I like doing things with my own hands and brains even though they have already been made a thousand times by other people. I like finding my own path to the solution instead of relying on others' advices. I make my own mistakes and learn from them.

On the other hand I don't like making mistakes — I still look at it negatively. Although making a mistake is better than doing nothing, I prefer doing nothing a lot more often than I wish I did. I cannot force myself to do several tasks I've been planning to do for a while now just because I'm afraid to fail. And every time I remember about them I feel like I'm dying inside.

So my mentality is more like “do it yourself but don't mess it up”. I should probably be doing more messy things. Doing shit that I would be proud of. Stop thinking about the possibilities of the negative outcome and just do it. There is a lot more positive that could happen than the negative.

I feel like an impostor sometimes. Like, who am I to do this? So I need to push harder because I am capable of doing that. On the other hand, maybe I'm actually overestimating my abilities. Now after I read @juliasaxena​'s post I'm not sure if I have a Dunning–Kruger bias or an Impostor Syndrome. Send help!

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