So this might be fan-rape -- claiming someone is a fan who actually is not. So I apologize if that's the case. But I truly do think that I do now have one fan -- someone who didn't initially know me in real life but enjoys and looks forward to my work.
And I wanted to write this now, similar to how I wrote about my future plans in order to obviate Survivorship Bias...
The feeling I have about fans right now is that the immense gratitude and pleasure provided from having even a single individual is equal to that of having 10, 100, a million, and so on. I truly believe that someday, even if I were to obtain 1000 real fans, the gratitude and pleasure would remain the same that I feel for the single fan I have right now.
I say this now because I don't want people to think in the easy for you to say now that you've made it manner. I want them to know that even before I made it, I already had made it. Because the intrinsic feeling is the same.
When you are doing something that you enjoy doing for the sake of doing it. Then the number of fans doesn't matter. So I write this as a plea... if you're waiting to greenlight your happiness predicated on something external... please please please please, get somewhere else. This somewhere else will be different based on your situation. So I can't give you anything concrete. But please get to that place.
It exists. That place where you do something cause you love it. And the number of fans. just. doesn't. matter.