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Aug 08, 2019 10:13:05

Death

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Philipp Haidenbauer

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Recently @brandonwilson asked me how my relationship to death changed since I have become a paramedic.

As I answered him it isn't really easy to answer.

I am a paramedic since 2015. Only three or four people were declared dead while I was there to help and reanimate.

The first two I can remember as it seems like it was yesterday. After them my memory on the following deaths gets blurry. I know I reanimated at least another person, but I can't tell when or who it was.

But how did it change my relationship with death? Well, my cousin died a few years ago. He was only in his early thirties.

I think that changed my mind on death more than the few people I have reanimated as the reanimated one were at least above 50. I know, 50 isn't "old" today, but at least you should have done some things you would like to do in your life.

As I have written, I am thinking about cryonics. I don't fear my death, but a really bad accident last week, killing three guys at the age of 18 and 17 made me realize that our time on earth is limited yet again.

How did it change me? I am thinking about every day as a gift and not something that's self-evident. Sure, I don't think every day in such a day, but I try to think most of the time of it and live my days off it.

Sure, most people say short-circuit decisions aren't the best decisions you can make, but I never really regretted one. And why not have fun for a few hours if it could be the last time?

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    @phaidenbauer loving this series of paramedic stories. Thoughtful, touching, life-affirming. 👍

    Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | Aug 09, 2019 09:02:25
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      @jasonleow Thank you! I try to write as close to my thoughts and feelings as possible.

      Philipp Haidenbauer avatar Philipp Haidenbauer | Aug 09, 2019 19:49:48
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    @phaidenbauer Reanimate is an interesting term. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

    Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | Aug 08, 2019 16:13:43
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      @brandonwilson Thank you for your response. Isn't reanimate the common "English" term?

      Philipp Haidenbauer avatar Philipp Haidenbauer | Aug 09, 2019 19:50:16
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      @phaidenbauer I think I have heard "resuscitate" or "bring back to life" but not so much reanimate.

      Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | Aug 09, 2019 13:24:58
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      @brandonwilson Interesting. Maybe we use it because the English and German version are written the same and only pronounced different.

      Philipp Haidenbauer avatar Philipp Haidenbauer | Aug 11, 2019 17:09:49
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