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May 02, 2019 07:00:40

Choking

by @twizzle PATRON | 433 words | 139🔥 | 145💌

Twizzle

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I nearly choked last night whilst eating dinner.

I was swallowing some food and it got stuck in the back of my throat and I really struggled to get it to move down.

And it's not the first time this has happened.

I have an issue with my throat - nothing diagnosed, so can't claim to be suffering from a known illness - but over time, I have been having the following issues

  1. Swallowing food, especially "stodgy" food like potato.
  2. Feeling like there is a lump in the back of my throat.
  3. A slight gagging feeling.
  4. A dry mouth, making it hard to swallow.
  5. Pressure in my neck at the front as if I am being strangled.
  6. Tight and sore neck muscles at the sides and back of my head.
  7. A sinus type pain in the cheek and eye on my right side, which radiates down into my neck and jaw.

I have never had any issues swallowing water though, but sometimes the anxiety that I am going to choke can make it worse.

How long has it been like this? Probably 6 years I think - maybe more.

I was once investigated for IBS symptoms and had an endoscopy - a camera down my throat and into my stomach (yum). I mentioned to the doctor performing the procedure that I sometimes had problems swallowing foods and pills, but he could not see anything wrong on the way down.

It has gotten worse over the years.

It used to come and go (which made me think it was stress related) but after I got the sinus type neck pain, it seems to have not gone away after that.

As I sit here and type this, I can feel pressure and pain under my right eye, similar to sinus pain.  This pressure also seems to make my right eye blurry slightly too, like a watery eye when I have a cold.  My throat feels tight and slightly swollen and when I swallow, it is as if I have a sore throat - but with just the constriction and discomfort of swallowing - not the pain.

Of course, I am suspecting the worst.

However, there is also a chance it could just be related to stress, drinking too much tea and coffee (definitely makes it worse at times) or that my neck muscles are tight, causing pressure in my neck.

What am I doing about it?

Nothing.

My depression prevents me from getting it fixed. Too many things would have to stop if I had to have some sort of treatment. People are relying on me.

If I stop - it all stops.

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    @twizzle "If I stop - it all stops." - Rome wasn't built in a day and so the world won't break in a day either.
    If people rely on you, they should be supportive to you when you need medical treatment and most importantly they will be.

    Philipp Haidenbauer avatar Philipp Haidenbauer | May 02, 2019 08:32:40
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