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Apr 04, 2019 22:41:24

Black Swan Change

by @abrahamKim PATRON | 465 words | 🐣 | 424💌


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We humans want things to stay the same. There might be some problems we want improved, but the average human does not actually desire or are even brave enough to weather complete change. History stands still until some unreasonable radicals shake it up. This is why phases or periods exist. But that’s just to the human eye. Under the surface everything is chaotic. And this chaos leads to the eventual radical change. And then after that, it all feels the same again.

If one of these radical moments came with my lust for smiles, then the next came in the winter of my junior year at college. When my friend, one who I remembered for his genuine smile, suddenly died.

It happened while I was in heads-down mode for finals week. I’m an easy person to reach, generally reply back to texts and emails really quickly and hardly let any fall through the cracks, but come finals week, it’s lights out. I am unreachable.

It happened at a time when I couldn’t get onto Facebook. I’d used some app on my computer to block it. And hardly anyone from my high school knew my email. If you asked me then, I would’ve plain said nobody from high school knew my email, because that’s what I sincerely believed. But then I would’ve been the fool, cause an email arrived into my inbox from Allison Mayberry.

I knew no Allison Mayberry’s at college, so I had to assume it was Allison from high school. How had she gotten my email? What was she reaching out for? The subject line of the email simply said “Hey.” And the body just “Are you busy? Can you call me?” And she left her phone number.

I went on a long walk after we talked. The email itself had roused interest and curiosity within me. But it hadn’t derailed my previous heads-down mindset. In fact, I replied back to that email saying I would call her along with my own phone number, and went straight to the paper I was writing. After a couple hours passed, I went to grab dinner at Chipotle with a friend, then went to a nearby cafe to talk. Neither of us wanted to get back to work just yet. We sat outside because my friend smoked cigarettes. In fact, it was this friend who had in the past bummed me enough cigarettes to fill a carton. I always joked that I’d pay them back with my cigarettes one day, but they never liked the kind I smoked. Menthols. But now that I’d quit, I was making it up to them through buying them overpriced drinks at the cafe. They didn’t even like regular coffee, so it was always the sugary milky kind. 

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    @abrahamKim - I can sense that it was a painful time from your writing.
    How exactly did he pass away? I feel like you carry some type of guilt about this. What happened exactly? Was your friend in college with you? And why did Alisson reach out to you? I need MORE!!

    Keni avatar Keni | Apr 04, 2019 17:02:33
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      Ahhh now I feel bad. I should put a description on the Westcity collection and caveat that it is FICTION. lol. and that #drewRaynor is the character name. I'm actually really glad that none of this happened to me!

      Abe avatar Abe | Apr 05, 2019 02:10:10
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      @abrahamKim - This feels like April's fool all over again.

      Keni avatar Keni | Apr 04, 2019 20:32:14
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      @abrahamKim @keni Boo. Ok you got me back with this one.

      Brandon Wilson avatar Brandon Wilson | Apr 05, 2019 10:23:18
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      @keni There was no schadenfreude here on this instance though! I was genuinely sorry for the misunderstanding!

      Abe avatar Abe | Apr 05, 2019 23:25:37
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      @abrahamKim - Maybe you could try making your fiction less believable so I would know immediately that it was made up. Is that something we can agree to?

      Keni avatar Keni | Apr 05, 2019 18:12:55
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      @abrahamKim - hmm... why is your profile showing no streak? Is this a bug?

      Keni avatar Keni | Apr 05, 2019 18:14:45
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      @keni Not a bug. i logged on to write an hour before the deadline yesterday, just to keep it up. But then i thought that was stupid because it was detracting from my work state of mind for no reason other than to keep the streak. So I'm just writing 3 posts over the weekend rather than two to keep up with you lol.

      And fomr now on all my fiction shall be contained within the 'Westcity' collection. That way it'll be more clear.

      Abe avatar Abe | Apr 06, 2019 21:24:54
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