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May 14, 2019 19:28:43

and mine was January, cold and dark

by @lucjah PATRON | 202 words | 15🔥 | 291💌


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The day was so beautiful. 14th day of May, sun, wind, flowers...

So different than the day I buried my father... Sometimes I have a feeling that we (me, my close ones, my country) have to struggle. I KNOW there are people, families, nations struggling much more. Suffering so much. Yet they are "far away", while the ones "not so far away" seem to just have it all.

Well, the contrast was obvious in this particular circumstances...

It was Winter, icy January, yet snow drifts, high and hard, were melting from the salt being spread on the roads. I was a very young driver (2 month since the first route on my own) and getting from my flat to the hospital was such an effort that on the arrival I was all sweaty and completely drained...

My dad got sick suddenly, got to the hospital too late, had a surgery, then another but was too weak to recover. He was fading away. In pain. In confusion...

I was alone. On my own with his pain. The frozen snow. The short dark days.

It all came back on that beautiful Spring day. And I felt envy. And sadness. And so lonely... 

just like then...

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    @lucjah thank you for merging and sharing the stories, as we are one <3

    PhilH avatar PhilH | May 16, 2019 23:29:38
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      @philh <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 ... <3

      Lucjah avatar Lucjah | May 18, 2019 17:47:10
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    @lucjah so sorry for your loss. :'( Must be hard for you, to have to write this. But glad you shared it, so that we can offer our presence. We're here.

    Jason Leow avatar Jason Leow | May 15, 2019 18:13:12
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    I'm sorry for your loss :(

    Spring is about renewal. Enjoy it, blossom again. No one is really lonely: I'm reading you, I'm with you.

    All the best ❤️

    Basile Samel avatar Basile Samel | May 14, 2019 20:45:57
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      @basilesamel @jasonleow Thank you <3
      It's so moving and heartwarming to know you are... here... with me :-)

      Lucjah avatar Lucjah | May 15, 2019 13:31:07
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