Today, I am running out of words. But I am timing this writing session 20 minutes before I move to the next task. This is because I want to measure how long will it take me to write 200 words. In this case, I am not trying to achieve any perfection, just simply a freewrite and trying to cage my monkey mind.
If you are not familiar with the term of monkey mind, it's basically a chaotic situation which our mind has. It can hinder our thought process and haunt us thorough the day, whilst doing important activities. So, it's good to write or type it down. Then, forget it for a while.
That's the approach I use these days. I will vomit all the words and ideas that are bothering me into this 200 words page, and forget about it. I know, most of my writings are public but I am trying to not really catch any attention by my title or so.
Like I said, today I am running out of words but there are several things that are bothering me at the moment : my thesis, my homework, my upcoming community service. As much as I like traveling and wandering, I don't like the idea of living in a random place for certain amount of time. I know, it will help me personally with my social skills but it's too much. I am not good at following local norm and I hate to offend people. So the idea of community service is a chore.
I have personally tried living out of the urban jungle. It was nice. I enjoyed my interaction with the locals who were very kind. However, when it is tied to my school, there are several rules imposed that I deemed too much. Although, maybe it's for our own good.
Other than that, my thesis progress has been very slow. I decided to write about gender roles but it's a challenging topic. There are countless paper I must read and it's been exhausting. But I believe in the idea of, one thing at a time. So, there's that.
Third, my homework. I have a lot of essays to write and it's very time consuming. This, resulted in low performance at work. I mean, I know that school is my first priority but I can't risk my reputation and my job since that's something I need the most than my school at the moment. But anyway, I'll find a balance to both.
So basically, I have 6 minutes left and I reached my word count already. Perhaps, I'll just end it here and trying to publish this. It's been slow in 200wad because the new loading addition. I don't know, it annoys me.Bu, I am trying to look at the brighter side, it tested my patience.